Honor & Presence

Last Friday was the first Friday in over 6 months that I didn’t send out a Friday Shift Change. I was traveling to Catalina Island for the marathon.

I was excited and nervous and never quite found the words to share that day. I met up with two college friends and their families and was immediately absorbed in the present moment of connection.

I've always had it in the back of my mind to run the Catalina Marathon. I grew up going to the island off of California during our summer breaks, visiting my grandparents at the Isthmus Yacht Club (an old Army Barracks). It was a simple vacation - made of long walks, people watching, and fishing with my Grandpa in his dinghy. My Great Uncle had a boat that we could stay on sometimes too.

Great childhood memories with my cousins and extended family and friends. My Grandpa's ashes were buried in the ocean off the island. The Tucker family spirit is still strong on the island...and it called to me to bring my family there too.

We lost my cousin Jace in December, to prostate cancer. He was one of those people who was truly full of life and I can still remember, for those few short weeks during those summers, how he "ran" the island. He seemed to know everyone and find opportunities that the rest of us wouldn't even consider were possible.

So this year was the year to run/walk this marathon. I wanted to honor Jace, our family and the landscape that has brought so much richness to my life. I recognize that my body is the youngest it will ever be and my mind is the strongest its been in a long time. I wanted to push myself to do hard things, to live this life fully, and to experience the entire journey wide awake. The anticipation, preparation, endurance, and accomplishment....whatever it ended up looking like.

What happened over the weekend is beyond words for today. I’m sure I will begin to share different layers and moments of the experience throughout the coming weeks. All I can say is that I’m truly overwhelmed with love and gratitude for my family, for friendship, for my body, for this beautiful earth, and for the incredible moments throughout the run that spotlighted what matters most to me in this life.

I hope this weekend brings you an opportunity to honor what matters most to you and to be fully present in wherever your life takes you this week.

xoxox Jen